Tuesday, August 2, 2011

Imbolc and a new beginning

the end of winter and beginning of early spring. I have felt so disconnected to the seasons for the past year and it took me all my strength to dig deep to find some kind of desire to be with Mother Nature as the wheel turned once again.

trying to go beyond the noises of suburbia - the cars, mowers & other modern tools of trade, the general noise of a busy commuting community. trying not to feel annoyance that no one else seems to care anymore about the natural world. am I being judgemental in this? not sure, but that is the way I am feeling as I try to grasp my way back.

snowdrops are up - a true sign of approaching springtime. I can hear and feel movement among the branches in the reserve behind. the birds busy with thinking about nest building.. choosing a home among the branches. a perfect site for them to bring up a new family. my heart aches when I realize how much my family has changed over the past year - I feel myself forcing me back to the present, telling myself that this is also part of the wheel.. the wheel of life. I know that I will get through this.

springtime dew on the plants each morning. sometimes I pick parsley or endive still wet with dew - and drop the leaves into the pots or plates without washing - allowing this chi energy, to become part of my self. the whole concept is so deep. every mouthful of food I take into my body, becomes part of me. every single thing that has happened to the plant or animal during its own life, becomes part of me. the struggle to survive, the nutrients and minerals from the soil, the wind, the rain, the sun and yes, the fear of animals slaughtered or kept in inhumane ways. makes me think even deeper about how I eat.

I feel stirrings within my soul - excitement that I won't be living here for much longer. excitement that the world goes on whatever happens in my own. Earth will still be there for me - to walk upon, to be with. I make promises in my journal to try to stand upon earth each day - barefoot. just me and Mother Earth.

I did a little gardening today - first time out in the garden in weeks. my body soaked up the early spring sun as I planted daisies, foxgloves and parsley. knowing I am moving, makes it so much easier to be here.


she could never go back and make some of the details pretty.
All she could do was move forward and make the whole beautiful
Terri St.Cloud

17 comments:

mxtodis123 said...

Oh my, when you said the Snowdrops were coming up, it made me think. Time is passing so quickly. It seems like only yesterday that they were blooming over here.

Blessings to you and yours, my friend.
Mary

Janet said...

Your words are so beautiful....the way you talk about Mother Nature. I wish more people felt like you do about our world. It would be a much better place if they did.

Imogen said...

I love the quote you conclude with. Good energy and good gathering to you, this Lammas-tide.

Ruth said...

Somehow it feels as if you have made the right decision this time.

rebecca said...

i am so happy that spring is whispering so close. spring...rebirth, renewal....
so wonderful to know too that your husband is right there willing to be reborn with you!

xoxoxoxoxo,
rebecca

Leanne said...

ah, thats our robyn, rising from the ashes....

Leanne x

foxysue said...

Back from my travels and happy to hear you are feeling little stirrings for the wind of change.

Sue x

Moncha Eilis said...

Hi Robyn, it's great that you have decided to go on here. What a good feeling it is when you know you are going to get out of a certain situation !! I love to hear all the new plans and hope you will be able to follow your dream real soon.
Hugs from The Netherlands.

Winterwood said...

I would love to move to a quiet secluded place too... I need to find a mountain here too! I am SO over suburban living!

gemma said...

xx My love and blessings to you dear Robyn. So glad to know you are caring for earth at Villa Maria even though you won't be there long.
All shall be well...

A bird in the hand said...

Love love love your new look and blog. My "one little robyn", keep moving forward confidently. xoxo

judie said...

All will be well Robyn. Your children must live their lives, but you have your soul mate and where ever you two go you will find happiness. Love you! xoxo

Tina said...

This sounds good! It think it is the right time for your change, you will profit of Natures renewing energy. Soak up the sun, it will do you good at this time of the year.

Debra She Who Seeks said...

You're right about modern families not being like families when we were young. The world has changed. But there's no holding back time or change, is there? I feel that a wonderful future is calling you.

rebecca said...

darling soul,
are you feeling better? please tell me you are on the mend and up and about, a heart filled with peace and promise.
always with you wanting your highest and best good. ready to watch you unfold like the precious flower you are.
xxoxoxoxxoxo

Bozena Wojtaszek said...

Just discovered your blog and all those wise words and thoughts.
A bit of warning - I'm going to be a frequent visitor :)

Serena said...

You are so connected to Mother Earth, Robyn....beautiful and thoughtful post. xo

"She seemed to come suddenly upon happiness as if she had surprised a butterfly in the Winter woods"
(edith wharton)