Monday, January 3, 2011

breathing in those little moments


[therefore be at Peace with God. whatever you conceive Him to be]

stumbling towards ecstasy? i always seem to be stumbling.. or rather tripping on the path towards something.. I found this on Rebecca's blog today - her entry for the weekly 'Stumbling towards Ecstasy'

don't bend,

don't water it down,

don't try to make it logical,

don't edit your own

soul according to the fashion.

rather,

follow your most intense obsessions mercilessly.

franz kafka

I hide & edit my soul mostly. in fear of what? not being accepted for who I am? or hiding them to fit into who people think I am or should be.. maybe I even edit my soul to suit myself sometimes...the words spoke to me..
it is ok to be you.. let your inner obsessions fly!

sitting in Mass yesterday - I heard the words..
'across the ages, we are linked with the Magi. this link reaches over generations..from those Wise Men to us.. WE are all seekers, searchers.'
the Priest knew what I needed. I wanted to drown in his words. absorb them up like a sponge, into my very being. I felt a belonging, a link to all that Is.

welcoming a new day - opening my heart and breathing in. ~ Ruach ~ playing gently with my hair.. the perfume of soil, damp from overnight rain [you know, that earthy, fertile smell.].. & kookaburras quietly cackling in nearby trees.. be still & know that I am God.

other little moments this week?

[celebrating my 53yrs of life]

sitting out under an old oak tree on New Years night.. being served dinner.. and even though, I have never been there,.. I felt like I could have been in France

19 comments:

mxtodis123 said...

Happy Birthday, my friend. What a wonderful place to spend the New Year...a beautiful restaurant. It is so good to hear you feeling so good about yourself. Wishing you joy and love throughout the year.
Mary

rebecca said...

dear miss R,
i would say this is a perfect stumbling.
so glad you shared each word....
i am hoping as we place more attention on extraordinary ...we will find more diamonds in the dust.

your wonder fills me

Debra She Who Seeks said...

Your comments on the Magi remind me of that saying (usually seen around Christmas) -- "Wise men seek Him still." The Magi have always been favourite nativity characters of mine, precisely because they are seekers and give their search pre-eminence in their lives.

Fire Byrd said...

If you aren't you then who are you?
It's odd this is a recurring theme I'm reading at the moment. People not wanting to let others know who they are, the fear being if people 'really know' they won't like them. It's not true people know who we are and love us in spite of our'faults' they love us cause they love the whole of us and don't single bits of us out as being nicer or nastier.
So be at peace with yourself dearest Robyn and don't be afraid of letting anyone know who you are, cause you are as magical and gorgeous as everyone else, oh and grouchy and fat just like all of us!!!!! ( just four words that I can apply to me on a good/bad day so not words I'm 'saying' to you just examples!)
Love the you I know.
xx

foxysue said...

So pleased to have met you via Rebecca's blog, always a lovely place to meet, such gentle, warm souls dwell there!

I think I have spent sometime editing myself too, for others or maybe self, these days however, I tend to settle for just be me.

See you at Rebecca's Place soon!

Love Sue x

turquoise cro said...

Yes! Be yourself! GOD loves YOU that way! and yes, that is my art, if it has a Cro on it! Cro=me, Cinda Rae Oliverio. By the way,I love your lantern banner,it seems to say, "Hi! I've left the light on for YOU! Come in!" As I'm thinking, it also reminds me of one of my old albums, Maria Maldaur's "Southern Winds" singing, "I'll keep my light in my window" Have YOU heard it?!

Noelle Renee said...

Beautiful post. A celebration of your birthday and eating under the stars. I think that is definitely ecstasy. Happy Birthday. Mine was on Dec. 30. I was 54. Happy New Year to you.
Noelle

Holly said...

Happy Birthday R....thanks for this post, I needed it today. Hey, did you send me a card back in April? I have two wonderful R friends both from Canada and somehow I think twas you who sent the card. At any rate, it must have circumnavigated the globe several times for it just got here to me a week ago!!!! How funny is that?!

Holly said...

Whoops I meant to say two R friends from Australia! Why I wrote Canada, I can't say. The card was purchased at Ikea and is two shells put together to look like a heart.

gemma said...

Dearest Robyn, Love your honesty here and in everything you post.I stumbled upon Rebecca's blog recently and love it. Wise and wonderful words coming to you from many different places. Life is good.

Moncha said...

Happy Birthday !! I hope you had a wonderful time. A very Happy New Year too with all the best wishes I can think of !!!
Hugs from The Netherlands.

Imogen said...

Happy belated birthday, Miss Robyn! What a haunting picture of a poetic, midsummer's night birthday supper and a hot, still, New Year's day! - so unlike the dank darkness here at the moment (but the dark also has it's beauties... on the which subject, yes, it is so true how often one edits oneself, and it's and so hard not to, when a little nag-voice mutters self-doubt and criticism - but Turquoise Crow is right, the Almighty made us to be as we are, not to be hidden...
Happy New Year!

Janet said...

This post made me feel good reading it. I especially liked "it is ok to be you.. let your inner obsessions fly!"

I'm the only me there is and you're the only you there is. We can only be ourselves and that makes it perfect! I love you!

rebecca said...

thank you for your well wishes...i have placed them directly to my heart.

Annie said...

Happy birthday, again, dear friend. Like you, I have molded my soul - to what end? - I ask now. No more molding. No more shaping. I'm brave enough to share myself completely. What an ecstatic feeling.

Sheila said...

Wonderful words from Kafka...
words to live by.
This is a lovely post, and will give me food for thought over the next few hours.
I am learning sooo slowly it is okay to be me.
But that quiet little voice of doubt still reaches my ears on occasion..
love you
xx

judie said...

You are special Robyn. And I feel special when I come here to visit. I love Springwood as much as Inglewood.

I have something for you. Sending you an email. xoxo

Marilyn said...

Welcoming a new day, opening your heart - your words are so beautiful.
Although this is my first visit to your blog, and therefore don't know you, I would like to wish you a very happy birthday.

Pam said...

Happy Happy Birthday to a very special person. I am a little late with your birthday wishes but want to say thanks for being you.xxx

"She seemed to come suddenly upon happiness as if she had surprised a butterfly in the Winter woods"
(edith wharton)