sometimes even now as an adult.. this fear creeps up on me like a shadow in the night.. lately it has been the fear of loss.. losing my darling dutch husband.. to death or some other such catastrophe .. my mind gallops away before I have a chance to harness it, going places that are really not rational at all and I feel this gut wrenching loss - deep in my solar plexus.. what will I do if he dies before me? leaving me adrift in a sea of loneliness..
the adult self knows these are only fantasies of the mind and actually are quite silly.. but inside there is a well of this fear.. I was not going to post about my fears.. but, surely I am not alone in this galloping of the mind into the future of what ifs?..
this fear makes up quite a big percentage of my dark nights of my soul
..then, something pulls me up.. bringing me back to the present moment. to being, In this body. encouraging me to nurture myself in my fear..
take a bath[I hear whispered in my soul] - a few petals scattered .. some essential oils to soothe the fear....
are these little rituals,
my way of,
stumbling towards ecstasy?
other daily rituals that help: cool still water.. organic fresh fruit juice.. almonds..
do you have any little rituals that help you come back to who you are? that help you be in the present moment?